I am normally a very sound sleeper.
I will wake up quickly, if I hear something that isn’t normal in the house, but for the most part the only time I wake up, is when I need to use the restroom.
Psalms 119:62 (HCSB)
I rise at midnight to thank You for Your righteous judgments.
Not the case last night
It was 12:08AM, when my eyes opened, fully awake and in mid-prayer. I was giving thanks to God, for general blessings that He has bestowed on me.
An overwhelming sense of joy was present and without thinking, I continued praying, for several minutes, until, once again, I was again asleep.
Over the course of the next several hours, I was awaken three more times, with the same set of circumstances surrounding prayer. Each time I would continue the prayer, until I was again, sound asleep.
The last time before getting up I remember a twinge, of concern about my ability to remain alert, during my approaching work day.
I wasn’t in a panic or anything over these eruptions of prayer, but the thought did cross my mind, that I might find it difficult navigating the day, with such a broken sleep pattern the night before.
So, I asked that the Lord provide me, with the rest I needed, to remain alert through the day, and again thanked Him for waking me to such a wonderful experience.
Wonderful it was too. Each time I woke up I found myself thanking God for different things.
Psalms 7:17 (HCSB)
I will thank the Lord for His righteousness; I will sing about the name of Yahweh the Most High.
When I woke up at 4:30 (about 15 minutes ahead of my alarm) I was wide awake and alert and for the fifth time I was full of joy and praising God.
As I was only a few minutes away from the alarm going off. I got out of bed and turned of my alarm, so that it wouldn’t bother anyone unnecessarily.
I took the little extra time, that I had, due to the early rising and trimmed my mustache and beard a bit.
Then got ready for work. Noting that I had a healthy level of energy starting out the day; unposed to my normal sluggish start on these early mornings.
I may be accused, of being too literal, with the words of Jesus. if so, it is fine with me. But I choose to take this literal.
Matthew 11:28-30 (HCSB)
“Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
This passage came to mind, as I was putting together my morning.
I have been burdened, these past several weeks, as I was working most of my free hours, on writing a book, that was laid on my heart (A Love Relationship – Let Us Pray). I had finished the third draft Sunday, evening late.
This book had been the center focus of my conscious mind for, about the last, four weeks. God kept giving me things to write about and I kept writing.
Having an engineering background in information technology, I am driven to have a grasp of cause and effect, for most everything I encounter.
With spiritual matters, quite often you have to simply leave things, in the category, that God has done something His way and while we don’t understand it. He has His plans and they are good ones. I didn’t have to do that this time.
Because, with this constant waking up praising God scenario; I believe I know the cause, after considering it a little while.
I’ll get to that causation here in a bit but I need to give you some more background, on the completion of the third draft, of the book, to make this clearer.
The 3rd draft, the was the result of finding numerous errors and omissions in my manuscripts 2nd draft.
I started rereading what I had written and as I worked my way, slowly through it, I found plenty, of errors.
Somehow what had been bouncing around in my head, just didn’t quite make it, to the keyboard fully in tact, on draft #2.
When I finished draft three, last night, I was literally shaking. This was the first time, that I had read the book, from beginning to end. I was in shock and amazement, at what I found there. I clearly, was only the hands at the keyboard, the words came from someone else.
I was so very humbled and thankful for the work that the Lord had done.
Philippians 2:13 (HCSB)
For it is God who is working in you, enabling you both to desire and to work out His good purpose.
God had been at work and there wasn’t any doubt in my mind. I’d fought off, His direction for over a year.
I didn’t know how to proceed and was filled with uncertainty, about not just the content, but even my ability to to complete the task, once started.
But yet, there it was; “Enabling you both to desire and to work out His good purpose”.
The only thing I can describe this feeling I had is perhaps the word ‘awe’.
Awe of all that God had just done. Something that I could never do on my own.
I was struck with this sense of awe, as I approached the later chapters, of the book, looking for errors.
After done and I had sent out the copies, to those who were reviewing it for me, there was an hour and a half gap till my head hit the pillow. During that gap my excitement never subsided. I went to bed in a state of amazement.
The last thing I remember before sleep over took me was just how appreciative I was and the joy in my heart.
I’m pretty certain that the reading of the draft, was the causation. So, at least I have a pretty good idea, what kept waking me up and in the state, I found myself each time.
A Loving Relationship – Let Us Pray
The events of last night, aren’t the sum of what God, has done through the writing of this book.
All during the course of this endeavor, I’ve been driven, to put down one chapter after the next. God fed me information faster than I could compose it, on the keyboard.
It has brought conviction for myself, profound changes in me, changes in my relationship with the Lord, all while holding on for dear life, as God pushed this to completion, with breakneck speed.
I’m anticipating self publishing the book in both, digital and hard copy. But I have to be perfectly honest; if it never made it to print, what I have been blessed with, to sit in the front row, as God put it together, is the biggest reward, I could have hoped for.
This evening, after all the dust has settled and I’m able to take stock of what transpired in the last 24 hours. My feelings can best be summed up as; amazed (at what God’s done), blessed (to have been present), loved (as I know more than ever my redeemer loves me), and hopeful (as I pray that this book does make it to print and that other lives will be touched, just as mine has been, being the pen in God’s hand).
Wake me up anytime, Lord!